May 27, 1999
Dearest Jane,
I have been thinking about you a lot lately. It seems like every time I do something, I think, "Oh, Jane would like that." Only you are not here. I really miss you. I know the Clan advocates House and Clan over the individual... but you and I are different. We always have been. Ever since we met in 1956. I think we both knew it back then, too. Life long friends are too rare and special to let pass by.
Two big things happened in April. I was Released from John's Accounting. The Innis Chantry has a really nice custom for the formal releasing of a neonate. There was a full ceremony detailing my history with John and the Chantry. They even mentioned some of my academic and occult achievements.
John formally released me. I formally accepted responsibility for myself. Then, much to my surprise, the Regent stood up and formally acknowledged my contribution, effective leadership and quick thinking while defending John and the Ritual during that Sabbat attack last December. He said that I was a 'shining example of what a promising young Tremere mage was supposed to be.'
It was a bittersweet victory. We lost so much in that attack. As much as we gained... the information of the Sabbat stronghold in the area... the loss was too great in my eyes. And yet, because of it, my name is now being sung in praises. It is hard to know how to feel. I want to be proud, but I cannot let myself be. Not yet. It is too soon. I know you understand.
I am not sure what is going to happen now. I have heard that the Old Man has been discussing my new Chantry assignment with the Regent. The Old Man. He would skin me alive if he heard me calling him that. I bet he is happy to not have to Account for me anymore. Sometimes, I think you and I tried his patience to the breaking point. Then again, perhaps, that is why we were his favorites.
I miss you, Jane. I really do.
Love,
Kayley
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